Wednesday, January 27, 2010
what the hell is love?
After carefully analyzing love for some years and through my friends experience i have concluded that one is in love when he or she feels complete in that persons presence. Being complete is a bliss one hopes for because not every one feels that serene composure. It's that utmost happiness one cannot describe and that no matter how mad you are at that person or how bad the day went that persons presence makes you smile and makes you forget every disturbance in your life. there is no age to fall in love. and frankly i don't believe that love just happens once. it can happen again as well. but yes true love just happens once. not every body finds true love and so if you do you should hold on to it, don't let it go. love is irreplaceable.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
.......
"EVERY DAY I TRY TO LOVE HIM THE WAY I LOVED YOU...RANDOMLY FOOLISHLY I THINK WHY HE IS NOT YOU.BUT THEN AGAIN ITS DESTINY THAT YOU FOUND LOVE AGAIN IN HER ARMS AND ITS MINE TO TRY TO BE HIS IN HIS ARMS. I LOOK ACROSS THE ROOM AND SEE A BUNCH OF LOVELY FLOWERS AND A SMILE ON MY FACE TELL ME THAT THE RUST IS SETTLING DOWN.THE LAST THREAD IS STILL THERE AND I WONDER WHEN WILL IT GO, WONDER WHEN WILL I STOP WORRYING ABOUT THE WRINKLES ON YOUR BROWS...SOMETIMES I FEEL IT WILL ALWAYS REMAIN BECAUSE THE ASHES OF THE EIGHTEEN YEAR OLD STILL REMAIN. NO MATTER HOW HIS ARMS HOLD ME OR HIS LIPS KISS ME I ALWAYS DESIRE A LAST WISH,THAT JUST ONE DAY ME YOU COULD MISS .I ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU ARE WEAK BUT YOUR STRENGTH OVER POWERED ME. A WOMEN CAN LOVE JUST ONCE THEY SAY I DON'T REALLY REPLY BECAUSE I DONT KNOW IF ITS TRUE. I LOVE YOU STILL DEEP DEEP DOWN BELOW, BUT I HOLD HIS HAND TODAY AND HAPPINESS IS ALL WHAT I SHOW " ~
its complicated because you make it one
so why do i stop being friendly to a guy who falls in for me and especially when i thought he is a frnd...well simply because its irritating, because from day one you made it clear that you dnt appreciate that....and also its suffocating, because you tend to start questioning all the good little deeds he did for you, that was not because he was being ure frnd but because he wanted you to like him...why am i writing this because i got to know through an electronic devise that a person i thought was a frnd has fallen in love with me and has written soo much abt me. and hence the biggest help i could provide him right now iz the fact of not being his frnd anymore because only that would make him move on from me...so tomorrow wld probably be the last day i see him, and then my guy wld tell him that he needs to take a step back from my life, i know it would be harsh, but then that is also the cure because i cant stick around him anymore. no matter wt i say regarding the person with whom i'll spend the rest of my life with, the fact is, that it is beyond the kundli and brahmin crap and that is sense of being complete and happy. friendship is of course the first step to love but it is not the thing only. it requires many more things. few weeks back a close buddy of mine told me that i need to act differently wid my female pals and my male ones and i did not really understand it until now, and i stand corrected. if i spend a nice quality time wid someone its because of the company i enjoy and not that i like him like him. and nor my parents are soo blind that just because a person shares my caste i'll be married off to him because no matter what it is my decision and my parents are no hitler for crying out loud.i am not against love marriage or love in general,,,how can i? its one of the most beautiful things in the world to experience it but being in love with ure eyes closed is insane. i feel sorry for him but i am angry as well.he is no different than the guy for whom he was campaigning earlier.
so this is my vent of frustration...
so this is my vent of frustration...
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
RAHUL gandhi finally arrives....seems so
Rahul Gandhi: No more a political 'Pappu'
Renu Mittal in New Delhi
May 05, 2009 17:49 IST
Rahul Gandhi [Images] took some time took off from his hectic campaigning schedule to address a packed press conference in New Delhi [Images] on Tuesday.
The Gandhi scion, widely touted to be the prime-minister-in-waiting, answered almost each question clearly and painstakingly.
While there was nothing new or startling in his answers, they conveyed the sincerity of an earnest young man who is neither shrill nor loud. Though he sounded like a political novice possessing a fair degree of clarity on certain issues, the confidence in his speech and gait was the result of canvassing across the political landscape of the country.
After the press conference, a Congress activist who has been critical of the young Gandhi, observed, "Pappu paas ho gaya". He admitted that he was impressed by Gandhi's manner of speaking, adding, "It looks like he is on the way to becoming a political leader."
The political buzz so far indicated that Rahul, who is referred to as 'Pappu' by both Congress activists and journalists, was detached and disinterested in the Congress' affairs. There has been a perceptibly stronger demand for the more politically savvy, articulate and charismatic Priyanka, who is seen as a Gandhi who can take the Congress to greater heights. But she has made it clear that politics is not her immediate priority, and disconsolate Congressmen have started looking at Rahul as the next best alternative.
But not many in the Congress, or outside it, know much about Rahul, the leader chosen by his mother, Congress chief Sonia Gandhi [Images], to carry forward the family legacy.
The ease and confidence with which Rahul spoke on issues which, according to him, are central to national politics, revealed a balanced leader who is not afraid to call a spade
a spade, even if it does not help the Congress' cause in the middle of Parliamentary elections.
Rahul revealed that he was 'emotional' about his current relationship with the Youth Congress and the National Students' Union of India. He made it clear that any attempt to downsize or downplay their role in building up the Congress party would be construed as an insult to the Youth Congress.
But there is more to Rahul's press conference than meets the eye.
Before holding the press conference held at Hotel Ashoka, the Gandhi scion had two sets of limited interactions, behind closed doors, with journalists from English newspapers. On both occasions, he ignored the representatives from the vernacular press, which help in the formation of public opinion in far flung areas of the country.
When the concerned journalists created a furore over the 'elitist discrimination', the press meet was thrown open to the entire media.
Gandhi also contradicted his own belief -- that the goals of growth ,development and poverty eradication can be achieved only by political parties which have achieved intra-party democracy -- when he refused to answer questions about the lack of a democratic structure within the Congress.
When it was pointed out that there were no elections to important bodies like the Congress Working Committee and there was no accountability on the part of senior leaders and chief mininisters, Gandhi ignored the query and launched an eulogy on the work being done by the Youth Congress and the NSUI in Punjab and Gujarat, where he had sought to democratise the organisation and hold elections.
Incidentally, former Punjab chief minister Beant Singh's [Images] grandson was 'elected' as the leader through this 'democratic process'. And there is no information on what happened to the other aspirants to that position.
But Gandhi still comes across as a young man who does not believe in living in the past. He believes that it is important to sustain the nine per cent growth rate of Dr Manmohan Singh [Images] so that the poor and the deprived can benefit from the social sector schemes and development projects.
In spite of the fact the Congress might need to drum up the Left's support after the election to form the central government, Gandhi made it clear that he believed that the Left was an old party with old ideas.
He cited their view on the India-United States nuclear agreement as an example, claiming that it revealed their outdated thinking.
Gandhi pointed out that the Left wanted to help the poor and backed the 'Rozgar yojana scheme' of the Centre but was against the nine per cent growth rate at the same time.
"So where do they think the money will come from to fund the schemes for the poor," he
asked, saying that he had basic differences with them in terms of ideology and the approach towards economic liberalisation.
At the risk of further alienating the Left parties, he doggedly and persistently continued to back Dr Singh as the best prime minister the country can have.
Rahul also expressed confidence that after the election, the Left will support the Congress and Dr Singh, adding, "The Left will support a Dr Manmohan Singh government. We will deliver him as the prime minister".
But Rahul, a product of the secular politics and thinking of the Nehru-Gandhi family, stressed that there could be no meeting ground with the Bharatiya Janata Party [Images], as both their economic and political ideologies would never match. He brought up the 'massacre of Muslims in Gujarat, the killings of Christians in Orissa and the anti-minority vote bank politics of the BJP," to substantiate his point.
But Rahul, the fledgling politician, appears to have come of age to some extent. Waging a psychological warfare on the BJP, he asserted that the BJP has given up the fight midway through the elections. The National Democratic Alliance exists only in the mind of the BJP, declared Gandhi, adding that evidence shows that there is no NDA in states like Haryana, Andhra Pradesh, Orissa, Rajasthan and other places.
He added that NDA allies like Janata Dal � United leader Nitish Kumar and AIADMK supreme Jayalalithaa [Images] were keeping their post-poll options open
Gandhi refused to comment on speculations on whether the Congress would prefer to sit in the Opposition rather than forming a fractured government at the Centre. He asserted that the Congress would improve its electoral position, as there had been a positive feeling wherever he had campaigned, and the United Progressive Alliance's allies continued to support the party.
"The sense on the ground is that we are not going to sit in the opposition," he said.
The young Gandhi clearly believes that the party with the largest number of seats has the right to lead the government. He said that if Nationalist Congress Party chief Sharad Pawar [Images] or the Left Front won the highest number of seats, they were welcome to form the government and he would be happy to support them.
It seems that Rahul Gandhi's stamp would be visible on the decisions and policies of the Congress party in the days, months and years ahead. He said he would continue to revive the youth congress and would not take up a ministerial berth unless forced to do so by Dr Singh or his mother.
He has gained in maturity and confidence to take on the entire national media and in the days to come, the nation would see much more of Rahul, who came across as a stubborn yet development-oriented leader. It's a combination Congressmen might find difficult to handle as they learn to live with a new Gandhi on the block.
Renu Mittal in New Delhi
May 05, 2009 17:49 IST
Rahul Gandhi [Images] took some time took off from his hectic campaigning schedule to address a packed press conference in New Delhi [Images] on Tuesday.
The Gandhi scion, widely touted to be the prime-minister-in-waiting, answered almost each question clearly and painstakingly.
While there was nothing new or startling in his answers, they conveyed the sincerity of an earnest young man who is neither shrill nor loud. Though he sounded like a political novice possessing a fair degree of clarity on certain issues, the confidence in his speech and gait was the result of canvassing across the political landscape of the country.
After the press conference, a Congress activist who has been critical of the young Gandhi, observed, "Pappu paas ho gaya". He admitted that he was impressed by Gandhi's manner of speaking, adding, "It looks like he is on the way to becoming a political leader."
The political buzz so far indicated that Rahul, who is referred to as 'Pappu' by both Congress activists and journalists, was detached and disinterested in the Congress' affairs. There has been a perceptibly stronger demand for the more politically savvy, articulate and charismatic Priyanka, who is seen as a Gandhi who can take the Congress to greater heights. But she has made it clear that politics is not her immediate priority, and disconsolate Congressmen have started looking at Rahul as the next best alternative.
But not many in the Congress, or outside it, know much about Rahul, the leader chosen by his mother, Congress chief Sonia Gandhi [Images], to carry forward the family legacy.
The ease and confidence with which Rahul spoke on issues which, according to him, are central to national politics, revealed a balanced leader who is not afraid to call a spade
a spade, even if it does not help the Congress' cause in the middle of Parliamentary elections.
Rahul revealed that he was 'emotional' about his current relationship with the Youth Congress and the National Students' Union of India. He made it clear that any attempt to downsize or downplay their role in building up the Congress party would be construed as an insult to the Youth Congress.
But there is more to Rahul's press conference than meets the eye.
Before holding the press conference held at Hotel Ashoka, the Gandhi scion had two sets of limited interactions, behind closed doors, with journalists from English newspapers. On both occasions, he ignored the representatives from the vernacular press, which help in the formation of public opinion in far flung areas of the country.
When the concerned journalists created a furore over the 'elitist discrimination', the press meet was thrown open to the entire media.
Gandhi also contradicted his own belief -- that the goals of growth ,development and poverty eradication can be achieved only by political parties which have achieved intra-party democracy -- when he refused to answer questions about the lack of a democratic structure within the Congress.
When it was pointed out that there were no elections to important bodies like the Congress Working Committee and there was no accountability on the part of senior leaders and chief mininisters, Gandhi ignored the query and launched an eulogy on the work being done by the Youth Congress and the NSUI in Punjab and Gujarat, where he had sought to democratise the organisation and hold elections.
Incidentally, former Punjab chief minister Beant Singh's [Images] grandson was 'elected' as the leader through this 'democratic process'. And there is no information on what happened to the other aspirants to that position.
But Gandhi still comes across as a young man who does not believe in living in the past. He believes that it is important to sustain the nine per cent growth rate of Dr Manmohan Singh [Images] so that the poor and the deprived can benefit from the social sector schemes and development projects.
In spite of the fact the Congress might need to drum up the Left's support after the election to form the central government, Gandhi made it clear that he believed that the Left was an old party with old ideas.
He cited their view on the India-United States nuclear agreement as an example, claiming that it revealed their outdated thinking.
Gandhi pointed out that the Left wanted to help the poor and backed the 'Rozgar yojana scheme' of the Centre but was against the nine per cent growth rate at the same time.
"So where do they think the money will come from to fund the schemes for the poor," he
asked, saying that he had basic differences with them in terms of ideology and the approach towards economic liberalisation.
At the risk of further alienating the Left parties, he doggedly and persistently continued to back Dr Singh as the best prime minister the country can have.
Rahul also expressed confidence that after the election, the Left will support the Congress and Dr Singh, adding, "The Left will support a Dr Manmohan Singh government. We will deliver him as the prime minister".
But Rahul, a product of the secular politics and thinking of the Nehru-Gandhi family, stressed that there could be no meeting ground with the Bharatiya Janata Party [Images], as both their economic and political ideologies would never match. He brought up the 'massacre of Muslims in Gujarat, the killings of Christians in Orissa and the anti-minority vote bank politics of the BJP," to substantiate his point.
But Rahul, the fledgling politician, appears to have come of age to some extent. Waging a psychological warfare on the BJP, he asserted that the BJP has given up the fight midway through the elections. The National Democratic Alliance exists only in the mind of the BJP, declared Gandhi, adding that evidence shows that there is no NDA in states like Haryana, Andhra Pradesh, Orissa, Rajasthan and other places.
He added that NDA allies like Janata Dal � United leader Nitish Kumar and AIADMK supreme Jayalalithaa [Images] were keeping their post-poll options open
Gandhi refused to comment on speculations on whether the Congress would prefer to sit in the Opposition rather than forming a fractured government at the Centre. He asserted that the Congress would improve its electoral position, as there had been a positive feeling wherever he had campaigned, and the United Progressive Alliance's allies continued to support the party.
"The sense on the ground is that we are not going to sit in the opposition," he said.
The young Gandhi clearly believes that the party with the largest number of seats has the right to lead the government. He said that if Nationalist Congress Party chief Sharad Pawar [Images] or the Left Front won the highest number of seats, they were welcome to form the government and he would be happy to support them.
It seems that Rahul Gandhi's stamp would be visible on the decisions and policies of the Congress party in the days, months and years ahead. He said he would continue to revive the youth congress and would not take up a ministerial berth unless forced to do so by Dr Singh or his mother.
He has gained in maturity and confidence to take on the entire national media and in the days to come, the nation would see much more of Rahul, who came across as a stubborn yet development-oriented leader. It's a combination Congressmen might find difficult to handle as they learn to live with a new Gandhi on the block.
Friday, March 6, 2009
wished for a lullaby
sipping down my last wine,
on this dead day,
'cause i lost a fight.
i wiped off my priceless tears,
and looked up and
saw you.
it was the magic of your
steel eyes.
the way you looked at me'
i could've died
and when you
smiled,
i wished for a lullaby.
trip toed i walked
down the frosty lane.
still thinking why not to kiss you
and then
white crystals came down.
and you put your furry jacket on my side.
and we reached
my front steps
i crimsoned away.
while his palm touched my hand
and pulled me close
and kissed me a goodbye.
it was the magic of your
steel eyes.
the way you looked at me'
i could've died
and when you
smiled,
i wished for a lullaby.
sipping down my last wine
on this wonderful night
i keep you with me
till you finish this
lullaby.
on this dead day,
'cause i lost a fight.
i wiped off my priceless tears,
and looked up and
saw you.
it was the magic of your
steel eyes.
the way you looked at me'
i could've died
and when you
smiled,
i wished for a lullaby.
trip toed i walked
down the frosty lane.
still thinking why not to kiss you
and then
white crystals came down.
and you put your furry jacket on my side.
and we reached
my front steps
i crimsoned away.
while his palm touched my hand
and pulled me close
and kissed me a goodbye.
it was the magic of your
steel eyes.
the way you looked at me'
i could've died
and when you
smiled,
i wished for a lullaby.
sipping down my last wine
on this wonderful night
i keep you with me
till you finish this
lullaby.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Its me v the rest
I vividly remember that it was because of Mahesh bhupathi that I got hooked into tennis but since he would never reach in formidable ground at international grand slam, my focus changed to international players. And so the first one I got hooked to was andy roddik. I guess it was a wimby final and fedex had beaten him in straight sets. And my heart moved on. Not because andy lost but he absolutely dint show any zeal to win. It was at that time that I became an avid admirer to this Spanish guy…Rafael nadal. People call him through different names rafa being a favourite, but for me it has always been naddy. Its been nice two- three years of being his fan. I could never become a roger fan and there is absolutely no reason for it since he is perhaps one of the greatest players the tennis history has seen. Roger shows the shadow of how tennis is supreme. His fore hand is marvelous. But what is amazing about this guy is his determination to win. Naddy has been working hard and hard. It was, as every body knew impossible to beat him on clay but no one would have ever expected him to grab a wimby title. Ah…what a match it was… unfortunately I was in an idiotic train and I could’nt see it but thanxs to you tube I finally did. I am very emotional towards nadals game. I am fixated and I have to seen all his matches. I think I saw all the US open matches of 2008 but could’nt see the final where naddy lost. I started to believe that it was me…but when my baby became the number one player man I was so proud.
Sadly non in my family supports nadal. And all are for fedex. So im always seen fighting.
I don’t know till when will he be a number one and I honestly hope for a long time to come….but still my heart will always be for - NADDY
Sadly non in my family supports nadal. And all are for fedex. So im always seen fighting.
I don’t know till when will he be a number one and I honestly hope for a long time to come….but still my heart will always be for - NADDY
Sunday, February 1, 2009
rafa wins........
Rafael Nadal has thwarted Roger Federer’s quest to equal Pete Sampras’ record of 14 Grand Slam singles titles after defeating the Swiss 7-5 3-6 7-6(3) 3-6 6-2 in a breathtaking final of Australian Open 2009 on Sunday night.
Tonight’s match-up was the 19th between the pair and their seventh Grand Slam final, with Nadal now enjoying a 13-6 win-loss against his Swiss rival, including winning their last five meetings. Nadal is now 6-3 in Grand Slam finals, while Federer falls to 13-5, all five of those losses coming to the Spaniard.
In the opening set, Nadal broke Federer in the first game after the Swiss served a double fault and sprayed two backhands, but Federer broke back immediately after a marathon Nadal service game that went to deuce four times, the first two games of the match lasting 15 minutes. Both players soon settled, and the standard of tennis lifted after the early exchanges, continuing to rise as the set progressed.
Federer survived a break point in the fifth game, steadying and sealing his serve with a 180km/h ace, and the No.2 seed jumped to a 4-2 lead after breaking the Spaniard in the next game, sealing it with an enormous forehand on a Nadal second serve. Nadal produced two extraordinary passing shots in the next Federer service game to break back, the Swiss handing it to him with his second double fault of the match on break point. At 5-5, Nadal earned two break points on the Federer serve, needing only one of them to earn a critical break with a driving down-the-line forehand that gave the Spaniard his fourth game in the last five. The No.1 seed then served out the 58-minute set 7-5, making half the number of errors for the set (8-16) and capitalising on all three of his break point chances, Federer managing to convert only two of his four break point opportunities.
Federer started the second set shakily, dropping to 0-30 in his first service game before recovering to go up 1-0 with an ace that he successfully challenged using video line-calling. Nadal averted a minor blip on serve when he crunched a backhand cross-court for 1-1, but Federer earned a break point in the fourth game, Nadal saving it with his first ace of the match and then steadying to level at 2-2. The Spaniard broke in the next game for a 3-2 lead after two untimely forehand errors by the Swiss, his 19th and 20th unforced errors for the match. Nadal then served his first double fault of the match in the sixth game and dumped a forehand meekly into the net to give Federer a break point, which the Spaniard gifted him after a forehand sailed over the baseline to level the scores at 3-3.
Federer’s first serve percentage dropped to 32 per cent for the set in the next game, but he held after a couple of anxious moments for 4-3. Federer then upped the ante in the eighth game by quickly earning two break points, and after Nadal recovered to force deuce, both players squandered numerous chances to win the game before Federer finally converted on a break point chance, his second for the set in seven attempts to leap to a 5-3 lead. The Swiss then comfortably served out the set, which took 48 minutes and saw Federer hit 16 winners to Nadal’s 11 while overcoming Nadal’s 67 per cent accuracy on first serves. The No.2 seed won the final four games of the set.
Nadal went back to the locker-room at the end of the second set, and started the third with a pair of superb curling forehands to take the first game. Federer quickly leveled at 1-1 after a superb overhead. Nadal produced the shot of the match with a spectacular running forehand in the fifth game to take a 3-2 lead, and despite Federer’s first serve percentage hovering dangerously in the low 40s for the set, the Swiss managed to hold for 3-3. Nadal had more unforced errors in the first six games of the third set (nine) than he had in each of the first two sets (eight in each).
Nadal received treatment from the trainer on his right thigh after the seventh game of the set, and was soon under pressure serving at 4-4 when he found himself quickly down 0-30. A Nadal forehand down the line then went wide, but the Spaniard recovered magnificently to save three break points. Federer played an exquisite backhand smash to get the game back to deuce, and a sprayed Federer forehand saw the Spaniard edge to a 5-4 lead. Nadal again sought treatment from the trainer after the ninth game as he tried to stave off the onset of cramp, and held serve in the 11th game after a mighty struggle, Federer failing to capitalise on three break point chances in the game, making him a costly 0-for-6 for the set. With a tiebreak looming, Nadal successfully challenged a line call before an errant Federer backhand handed the Spaniard a set point, the Swiss saving it with a 203km/h serve. Federer then squandered two game points before serving his second ace for the game to force a tiebreak, with the match ticking past three hours. Each player unsuccessfully challenged a call in the first six points of the tiebreaker, which saw the players change ends at 3-3. Nadal then won the next three points, the third of them with a superb running backhand volley, and a Federer double fault handed the Spaniard the set, which lasted 78 minutes. It was the No.2 seed’s only double fault for the set, one where both players made 17 unforced errors and Nadal won 52 points to Federer’s 50. After three sets, Nadal had converted four of his six break point chances, while Federer was just 4-for-17 on opportunities to break the Spaniard’s serve.
Federer held easily to open the fourth set, and had two break points on Nadal’s serve in the very next game, needing just one of them to take a 2-0 lead. A blazing forehand from the Spaniard saw him break back immediately, and after Nadal held for 2-2, the game of the match ensued. It went to deuce seven times, Federer altering his tactics and attempting to run Nadal around with numerous drop shots, and Nadal producing outrageous winners from all angles to stay alive. Federer eventually sealed a 3-2 lead when Nadal couldn’t track down Federer’s fourth drop shot of the game, with the first five games of the fourth set lasting a marathon 31 minutes.
A succession of errors from the Spaniard saw Federer break for a 4-2 advantage, with Nadal starting to appear fatigued, his punishing five-hour victory over Fernando Verdasco in the semifinals perhaps starting to take its toll. Federer held to love in the next game, and soon served out the set 6-3, the fourth frame lasting 45 minutes. Federer was 10-for-14 on net approaches in the set while hitting 15 winners to Nadal’s seven.
The fifth and final set started with Nadal holding easily, and while the Spaniard had Federer under pressure in the next game, he couldn’t capitalise with a break as the match ticked past the four-hour mark. He didn’t miss the opportunity to break Federer in his next service game, the Swiss relinquishing a 30-0 lead with a torrent of unforced errors to give Nadal a 3-1 lead. The Spaniard then held for 4-1, Federer’s unforced error count for the set ballooning to nine. The Swiss held to love in the next game, and in the crucial seventh game of the set, Nadal held his nerve, holding to love. With Federer serving to stay in the match, a double-fault handed Nadal a 0-30 lead, and a sprayed forehand handed the Spaniard two match points, the second of which Federer saved after a nail-biting rally that saw Nadal push a sliced backhand wide. Nadal then secured another match point, winning the title after Federer pushed a forehand long after four hours and 22 minutes.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
